It’s the first of the month and my dreams are bigger. My goals feel within reach for the first time in a long time. I think a lot of that has to do with my state of mind.
Last month, I started reading OOLA for Women. Ever since I started the book, I feel lighter. What I mean by that is I feel a lot of the weight I was carrying emotionally has been slowly shedding off of me and allowing me to refocus and work on ME. Work on the areas in my life that I have been allowing to slide. I am learning balance, daily and how to manage all that I have as well as all that I want. I am also learning to love myself more for WHO I AM vs. who I was trying to be – a people pleaser ::raises hand:: and who others expect me to be. Part of this new ME journey has been letting go of things that were holding me back. Feelings, people and things that have been a weight on my chest. I apologized to the people I felt I needed to. I confronted things that pained me, worried me and made me crazy trying to figure out. I deleted, added, removed, cried, laughed, drank wine, beer and even vodka. Self re-discovery is fulfilling but also terrifying.
It wasn’t easy but as soon as I got the courage to open my mouth & heart at the same time, I immediately felt I did the right thing. Today, as I type this, I feel so good! Like clear skies, birds chirping kinda good.
Every day that I find balance and truly focus on my dreams and wants, I am finding that something random throughout the day will go really, really right. Like the one-on-one time my Husband and I recently got because my sister was gracious enough to take our son for a sleepover. The extra snuggles with our baby girl due to being home a bit longer than anticipated after mate right leave. The strengthened friendship I am forming with someone over the same OOLA efforts, desires and attitude. The amazing conversation with a family member that hasn’t happened in a really long time, not like that. The cookbook I won from a health coach I admire. The growth in my ETSY Business and the new passion for my Young Living business. These are just a few things that have been little daily blessings.GRATITUDE is key these days. Not only for the big obvious things like a roof over my head, food in my mouth but also the small things that I’ve let slide by for years.
Laying in bed with my family and watching a silly movie. Hearing our three year old recite the Pledge of Allegiance for the first time. Getting a clear bit of health at our daughters four month check-up. Looking at my Husband and even after nine years being so ridiculously attracted to him. Clean sheets. Country music. LIFE. (to be continued – forever)